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05.10.2009, 00:17 quote

formula1gods
formula1gods Joined: 26 May 2009 Posts: 15 Location: United Kingdom, England, Leicestershire
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songbirdsix wrote:
Oh yeah. Stop saying your big and horrible! Because trust me, that's not what I see. You need a daily mantra, something like," I look good, I feel good and I'm getting better everyday"


Just saying the truth though, Im ugly and horrid. I know for a fact anyones seen my body before, and I understand why noone wants to know me.. Which I fully understand, who would like a big guy like me anyway.


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I know that when people lose large amounts of weight, mentally they still see themselves as "fat." I bet your still wearing big size clothes that are probably hanging off of you too, common as well. Go shopping and get some new clothes that show off your new bod!! It will open your eyes and make you feel so wonderful!!! Get out of the baggy clothes, chicks want to see your cute little ass! Now go on, go shopping, thrift stores will do if your on a budget, no excuses now!



Well, ive lost alot of weight and still losing weight to date, Ive gone back onto a big crash diet, with 45mins exercise a day. Im wearing all the same stuff clothes as before. And nopes, not all is hanging off me, like this hoody I have, I can jusssssst manage to get it over my head, its a tight squeeze, and thats a really big size aswell. Thing is though, its easy for you to say, go shopping, when you have no money, no time really and no taste in clothes well, we're kind of at a stale mate, chicks want to se emy cute butt, I mean what they gonna do, look at me then cute ehh. Wink



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Just one more thing then I'll quit ramblin. I was sorry to read about your trip to the hospital. I'm sure that was very scary for you. I hope the Dr.'s take good care of you and you are in good condition for the surgery. Please let me know the updates on all of that as I know it can be a frightening experience. Just concerned for you is all. Ok, now time to go shopping!

Your friend in the States,
Laura:)



I've had quite a fair few blackouts recently, a fair few out in that hospital I go to. I have them straight after my operations, and when I had my blood taken for tests, when I went in for a doctor to check me over and all, but meh.. When I was in these blackouts, well, there was only 1 person who stopped and gave me a plastic cup of water, whats the good of that ehh.. Bloody useless.



Right, I'd better talk about my operation I guess..

On Monday 14 of September I had to go to Addenbrookes hospital in Cambridge to have my operation, the first one of the two im going to have.. The first operation is gonna be on my chest. Its called a gyneacatima surgery, where they will cut my chest all open, make it look more masculine, remove excess skin and stitch me up, with them putting drains into my sides to suck up all the excess blood and liquids and stuff. I had to be there at bleeding 7am, left house at 5.30am. Too early for me. =[

Anyways, I was knocked out, so of course I didn't feel anything during the operation.. 5 hours after I woke up, and I was in alot of pain.. I had these drain things inside of my body and all.. And then found out that one of them wasn't working, and I was bleeding badly on my right side of the chest. I was like im in pain.. They were like, just sleep on it, we'll check it over in the morning, if its not working by then, you must have another operation otherwise I could lose my right side of my breast. So the next day came, and there was blood all over me, my underwear, my bed, my towels and stuff, so I went into the operating place again and knocked out, I woke up 5 hours after again, had a black out whilst waking up, and all, I took the bloody oxygen tube out of my face and the bloody doctor kept putting it back on.. I couldnt breath with it on.. What a cow. After that I had to stay in hospital for a fair few days because of me still losing alot of blood from the drains and all..

My birthday was on the 20th, and I said I cant stand this place and I wanna go home, the surgeon and nurses and all said its not the bestest thing to do you look pretty ill and stuff, I couldnt stay there another night. I couldnt sleep, I cant do anything. Nothing to do and all. So I signed something and told my parents to go home. We went home, but had to come back on the Saturday 19th. Did that, and found I was heeling okay..

I had to wear this gay little stretchy thing over my chest, which goes around my back and its fricken itchy and hurs my chest aswell, very unconfortable, but I have to wear this thing for 2 more weeks, I have plasters and stuff on my chest still.

My birthday was crap, it was just like any other day. I stayed home and alone doing nothing cept watch tele and recover and all.. Meh..

Im still single and noone gives a damn about me aswell. I mean I admit I've messaged a few people wh I thought were nice from their profile, and turns out they read your messages and not even have the courage to reply back. I mean how rude is that?

Meh.. I'd better stop talking now, just a upto date me for now I guess.

 
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